So I’m down to 4 weeks left! I have started going to the doctor every week now and yesterday’s appt left me feeling lots of mixed emotions.
The first was excitement. Doc says baby is head first so that’s always a good sign! And we’ve scheduled the rest of our appts so it really feels like the baby could come any day now. Which led me to feeling nervous. I’m a little worried about it going too fast that I won’t be able to get the epidural if I decide I want it. I have such pleasant memories of Amelia’s birth and I know that it is largely due to the fact that I had the drugs. I am trying to go without it this time…but we’ll see what happens. I asked the doc what he thought about the size of Sofia and he thinks Sofia will be bigger than Amelia. That left me feeling kinda bummed. I like my tiny babies 🙂 Plus, I was preparing for a tiny baby. Amelia was so tiny that she wore preemie clothes for awhile even though she wasn’t a preemie. So I have gathered up a few more (adorable!) preemie outfits and some preemie diapers. Amelia is already the runt out of her group of friends (I say that affectionately.) I’d really rather not have her little sister outgrow her as well! After the doc said he thought Sofia would be bigger he goes on to say to Amelia “but she probably won’t be as cute because you are just adorable!” And that left me feeling annoyed. Doc should really know better than to say something like that in front of a 36-week pregnant lady. He’s lucky I didn’t smack him. 😉
Anyway, it’s really starting to hit me just how little time is left. Next week when I hit the 37-week mark I think I’ll pack my bag for the hospital. And start praying that Amelia will be taken care of when we have to go in to the hospital. I hate that we have to leave her behind. I can’t wait for her to meet her baby sister for the first time. That will be fun!